There are times when all you want to do is stay in bed and sulk. Not because he left you. Its because everything he said to you just seemed a lie. You probably lived in a bubble where you built your castles. Well, he walked all over it.
I’ve been there.
But I have learnt to learn from my own mistakes that must have caused it.
I have learnt to be stronger and be a bigger and better person.
I have learnt to hate everything I loved about that one person.
Most importantly, I learnt to love myself more than anything in this world.
I confided in my best friend. He was there to listen, he was there for comfort, he was there to understand.
He held my hand in this unknown world that I am in and walked with me through the thick and thin I had been facing.
And there it was. Hope.
Friendship that suddenly began turning into a feeling.
The feeling I thought I’d never feel again.
He made me strong. He made me believe in myself again. Sometimes I just don’t have words to explain to him how much his presence means to me. It keeps me sane. It keeps me away from my thoughts, from my disbeliefs.
I don’t know if he knows how much I love him. Although the word has been thrown around and been abused, I know no other word to use. Words are not enough for me to say how much I appreciate everything he has done for me.
I believe in myself. I believe in us.
My best friend has turned into some one I now cannot even think of being away from.
It is important to be friends with your partner. That is what I have learnt. The true essence of friendship is found through love. And through love, you find friendship.
Its the best feeling to be who you are in front of your partner. You don’t need to fake anything, that will only lead to a lot of judgement. Its the best feeling, that laughter you share, those tears you cry, to know that you are there for each other, as lovers BUT most importantly, as friends.
I respect my best friend and I love him to bits - my boyfriend he is !
She has been chased by demons, in a dark dark twisted world.
She coudn’t wake from her nightmare, this never ending run.
She tried to stop to catch her breath, only thing she caught was regret.
Regret for even wanting to stop, being led by no faith, she stood there with in a circle with no corner to hide in.
She tried to open her eyes, or close her eyes to wake,
Caught by masked creatures, who walked over her, and some who didn’t let her go.
She tried to reach out for a hand, to leave these evil monsters, but little did she know, Only the monsters win.
So she stood up and decided to run again.. and she did..
She tried to open her eyes but realised, the whole time she thought it was a nightmare, it was reality she was stuck in….
He picked me up and put me together,
Like shattered glass on the floor,
I don’t know if he knew how deep glass can cut,
But he promised he was prepared.
He joined me in my lonely world,
His presence enlightened my life,
He looked into my eyes full of tears,
And rubbed them off when he hugged me tight.
But just when we were about to enter,
A world full of hope, a future to live for,
Along came the demons, looking for reasons,
To take him away…
Tied to a pole, barbed wire through my skin,
Is how I felt each time he’d take a step back,
And I felt like that same broken glass,
He had picked up in the first place.
I found myself in a nightmare,
Broken promises and endless pain,
I wish he could see those demons behind the masks they covered themselves in,
And realise, it was true what he believed in … what we believed in.
In search of light, in this very dark world,
Caught in chaos, drowning in a swirl of fright,
Feeling weaker and weaker, falling into a silent trap of the loudest sounds,
Going insane, and here I am, with myself I fight.
When at night, they haunt me in my dreams,
In my dreams I wish to wake,
But when I open my eyes,
I’m caught in a realm, not knowing what’s real… and what’s fake.